|
Gelao
|
read my profile
sign my guestbook
Name: Shelby
Gender: Female
Interests: Anime, Magic: The Gathering, reading good books, Dungeons and Dragons, Manga, knitting, and video games!
Expertise: The trombone, Guitar hero, singing, grammar, and being indecisive.
Occupation: Student
Message: message meEmail: email me
AIM:  katlity
MSN: katlity@hotmail.com
Yahoo:  F4L53_H34V3N
Member Since:
3/22/2005
|
|
SubscriptionsSites I Read
|
|
|
|
| WOW!!
That last post was so emotional, and I'm glad I never showed it to you because I would have caused us both unnecessary sadness. It's one year later and we are still together, and right now I don't believe things could be much better, only if we were together physically. I don't miss and need you as much, and you realized just how important your presence was to me at that time where my whole world was threatened by my insecure environment, and only when I was in shambles did you finally see I needed your help so badly. You were sorry, and I was grateful and we moved on.
Things at my home are still really shitty, but now I have good friends to support me and not to mention you. I couldn't have made it this far without your help, and now I feel like I'll be able to pull through this since I'm not on my own anymore.
You're so right. We are perfect for each other and I hope it stays that was forever, and I hope you never leave me alone again.
I'm happy to say my future is no longer a blank, I figured it out all on my own and I'll be going to university at the end of this year, and hopefully I will find out what it is that I really want. I always prepared for a change of heart within myself, and I don't plan to let everything fall into despair again just because I don't know where to go. I have you anyways, so I don't need to worry about a lack of motivation.
I'll see you in two weeks! Love you.
| | |
| Dear Love,
I love you so much with all of my heart. I think.
I don't know why I'm so weak. I don't think you're doing anything really wrong tat I can think of. Sometimes you don't listen to me, and you've gotten bored of my problems, and you're really not very sensitive with matters when it comes to me because you don't understand that I'm not one of your guy friends and that you can't treat us the same. First, the problem was sex, which was, of course, my fault. Then there's me being cranky all the time because I can't stand you, which is, of course, my fault too because I just shouldn't be cranky, and I should be happy.
Everybody else's boyfriends are so sensitive, and treat them like they're cherished, but I feel like I've just been around for so long, it doesn't really matter what you do or say to me anymore. All my friends say that you're a idiot that doesn't deserve me.
Actually, I'm the weak one. I don't deserve your security. I'll just keep pushing you away. I want my love to be like a love song. I want to be cheered up when I'm down, not just to be told to cheer myself up. I want to be encouraged and proud of instead of just being self-motivated.
I don't think that I can make you happy. I don't know what I can do for you. You don't understand because you're so heartless. I wish I were you. No feelings, or sadness. You don't have to look to the future and be looking at a blank.
I hope you find a girl better than me. One that can make you happy. I hope you forget about me, and move on, but I think I will never forget you. It may not have been you, but you offered me security in your home, financial security for my future.I love you.
| | |
| It's been nearly a week since I've updated. I cant really say I've been too busy, I just didn't feel like updating I guess.
Anyway, my mother tells me that her boyfriend's mother is in intensive care because there was a house fire this morning. I asked a couple of questions about his mom, and i foudn out that she is a drug addict. I didn't know that before, i thought that she was just crazy and old. We had a talk about drugs, what they do to people, and the road they lead you down. I've got a friend that does drugs, but only small stuff like weed, and he also smokes (which I don't approve of, by the way) I think that I might have a nice chate with him sometime soon.
On a lighter note, my play, Grease is going well. We had a rehearsal on Monday, and Saterday and we have two more rehearsals this week. it's getting scary becaue we do't know all of the songs yet, and we have to have them all memorized. What's really scary is that we haven't even touched the song that features me and Roger yet. Eek!
Yay! I competed in Friday Night Magic and won something like 6th place! Which is amazing because I've never won before. I was using my dirty Elf deck. I really should splash some black in there for the sake of some nasty black elves. *evil grin* I traded 3 Lord of Atlantis' for an Ajani today. Flippin sexy planeswalkers. I love them.
i will update later! I promise. Bai bai!
| | |
| Hey! This is amazing! I haven't posted on this site for 3 years now! Seems a little wierd to be getting to it now... but all is well here in the fort. I was just reading over my past entries, and I was not in good shape. What a weirdo... Anyway, I am pretty good. Let me tell you about me.
I'm in high school, I'm 16 now, and I'm involved in with choir, the school play (Grease, I'm jan), my boyfriedn of two years now, my friends at school, Dungeons and Dragons, and other things! I couldn't be happier!
Actually, i can't believe that my account is still here, and even all of my posts and such! Actually, I can't even tell how to work this thing anymore. It's almost just like facebook now, except better. :) i used to change my look every other week, and now I can't even change my profile picture! what are my superiors going to think of me? -_-
So tomorrow is Valentine's day. My boyfriend and I are supposed to be doing something. We're having dinner at his house and that's it I think. I already wrote hima letter, but I think I better come up with something else fast, because he's done so much for me, but I have no idea what to do for him! He's going to think I'm a terrible person! eek! We're also getting report card tomorrow. what kind of sicko decided "Hey let's give the kids their bad grades on V-day!" Ugh...
Speaking of school we're into our next symmester. I've got all of my academic courses this time around. Last semmester, i got lucky. all of my classes except for one was an arts course, so I only had one exam, but this time, I'm gonna be in over my head I think. Whatever, I can do it!
I'm in a new place now. We didn't end up moving to Maryland because the company my mother was goign to work for went bankrupt. So we moved to not so far away, but far away enough to lose touch over. I've got new friends though. It took a while to make them and to be truthful, I'm still trying to get comfy in my new home.
I think that I'll post more about myself later. I'll even visit some old Xanga friends! I'm so excited! See ya!Bai bai!
| | |
| LOOOOOOOK!!! LOOK LOOK LOOK!!! I'M UPDATING, I'M UPDATING!!!!
lol But I'm updating to tell you that I've moved. http://www.philosophy.nu/RavenSkye/ | | |
|
